I wish I could lie half as good as you
right to your face
and I wouldn’t even bat an eye
I wish I could hurt you half as much as you’ve hurt me
but then again, I wouldn’t
because unlike you, I actually cared
instead I hurt myself
I battle inside my own head 24 hours a day
because of the pain you’ve caused me
why would you do it?
I was an innocent little girl when I met you
now I'm full of shadows and scars
sometimes I wish I could take back everything you’ve caused
but then I would lose you forever
you think I’m the enemy here?
you’re the one that needs to grow the fuck up
you don’t know if you want me, her, or her
you can never tell
so I try to stay with you, I cling to you
hug you, kiss you, love you,
and you return it all with a blank look
sometimes I wish I could take it all back
all the good and bad times with you
so when you come back and know you lost me... you need me
and tell me you love me
it is my turn to give you the blank stare
like I've never seen you in my life
I wish I could forget you... forget your face
forget your name; forget the love you pretended to give me
I love you, truly, forever... I know I will
and you pretend I was never there at all.